Thursday, April 22, 2010

Baby Steps....

The last week of so, as I put the finishing touches on my girls birthday party, I've been looking back to the past year and reflecting how far we have come.  How we beat the odds when dealing with infertility, how our family survived 12 weeks in the NICU, how my girls have surpased all the statictics for preemie babies (knock on wood) and just generally how my life has been a series of baby steps the past few years. 

I don't remember my parents teaching me how to walk when I was little.  I don't remember taking my first steps, but I never will forget how these past few years have taught me how to "walk" in a different way.

When we struggled to get pregnant, month after month I would see that huge "NOT PREGNANT" light flashing at me on the digital First Response test, I wanted to crawl into a hole.  We wanted nothing more than to have children.  Terry held me hand through every appointment with our fertility specialist.  As we walked through those huge glass double doors, I remember Terry telling me "this is just one step that have to overcome to being parents".  My husband, My rock....he walked me through everything.

When we found out we were having triplets, I will never forget being scared to death!  A close friend told me, "This is obviously the path that God has chosen for you to walk.  HE would never lead you astray."  She told me the same thing when we lost our third baby girl.  Come to think of it....she told me that numerous times during our pregnancy.

When my girls were born and were immediately whisked away from us, I remember thinking that I didn't have one more ounce of energy left.  I wasn't strong enough to deal with this.  Those first few days, I couldn't find enough energy to pull myself out of the hospital bed.  I know I've said this before, but I credit, my Mom for teaching me how to walk again.  She forced me to get out of bed and made me realize that I was a stronger person than I ever thought I could be.  She showed me how to put one foot in front of the other again when I couldn't do it myself.

As I watch my precious Alexis toddle through our living room, and my darling Addison's strong will as she continues to be determined to walk.....I can't help but reminded of my favorite scripture:

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. 
Plans to give you a hope and a future."

God's has a plan for all of us.  Every step, stride, pace has all been a part of the road map that he has for us.  Sometimes we will fall, sometimes we miss a step.  But in the end, He will be right there protecting us.

I'm confident that His plans, and His protection is what allows our family to march,
through this crazy path of life!!


Amy's Blah, Blah, Blogging said...

What a comfort to have a God that loves us that much!

Our youngest was in the NICU for a week after birth (and compared to 12, that's nothing!) but it was a surprise after an uneventful pregnancy and a great birth. Nothing seemed wrong until they whisked her out of my arms a day later. Horrible for any mom. I remember praying over her little bed, wires and needles everywhere, having to continually remind myself of just this, he had these plans for me. ALL the days ordained for me were written in His book before one of them came to be.

What a good God!

John said...

Ok Lady read that one while I was crying. You took the words right out of my book! We lost so much we 3 little ones. But are so blessed with our little girl God gave us! Our girls are blessing and they are here for a reason to teach people it can happen! So happy you guys had a great b-day more to come! God Bless ans sending those prayers for Terry!

Anonymous said...

Sorry the one from John is Leah I was logged in as my hubby sorry lol